I feel like I’m suffocating. Breathing gets harder and harder with every breath and I just want to be normal again… I just want to be out of my mind and not jeopardize every happy thing I have. I’m messed up, I’m broken, and it’s been like this for too long. However, there’s no fixing me, at least not completely. Some parts will have to remain empty because the pieces have already drifted away with the current long ago. Like a message in a bottle: on an adventure of their own to find new things, make new homes and be forever lost from me.

I refuse to let you sink with me… ⚓️
Your heart is too pure. ❤️
I’m sorry…

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I ruin everything I touch

💙🌌🌚🌝🌀🔮🌄💜 | t w i s t e d | b e a u t y |  and apparently my subconscious loves gold🏆💰#butterflywings #sosad #butsopretty #twistedbeauty #gold #thingamabobs #doohickeies #shenanigans #letmedreamyoureyesshut

💙🌌🌚🌝🌀🔮🌄💜 | t w i s t e d | b e a u t y | and apparently my subconscious loves gold🏆💰#butterflywings #sosad #butsopretty #twistedbeauty #gold #thingamabobs #doohickeies #shenanigans #letmedreamyoureyesshut

Today my sister ran the 2 miler for her middle school cross country team! I am oh so very proud of her! I wish I could’ve been there to watch her have a blast! 😊😍😘🏃❤️👟✊💪👍 #sunthonlapclan #bigsisprobs #imissher #andmyfamily #elisedarawan #runner #2miler #gogetem #greatjob #iloveyou thanks @steven_sunthonlap for the videos! 😘 I love you too!

These little girls know exactly how to brighten up my days! 😄😍😘😁👶👶🙈🙉🙊👯💕🐤🐔🍼🍼🚼🚼♐️♐️ #sunthonlapclan #sisters #twins #nitalabonita #lalatheballa #chunkyheads #littlemonkeys #playingpeekaboo #bigsisprobs #asianbabies

These little girls know exactly how to brighten up my days! 😄😍😘😁👶👶🙈🙉🙊👯💕🐤🐔🍼🍼🚼🚼♐️♐️ #sunthonlapclan #sisters #twins #nitalabonita #lalatheballa #chunkyheads #littlemonkeys #playingpeekaboo #bigsisprobs #asianbabies

Since I can’t have my best friend @shellgrif, I guess this will suffice… Gotta feed that sweet tooth! 😍😋👌❤️🐚🐼🍦🍨💟 #bestfriendwithdrawls #coffee #icecream #shellyshell #mandapanda #sweettooth #indulge #bestfriends

Since I can’t have my best friend @shellgrif, I guess this will suffice… Gotta feed that sweet tooth! 😍😋👌❤️🐚🐼🍦🍨💟 #bestfriendwithdrawls #coffee #icecream #shellyshell #mandapanda #sweettooth #indulge #bestfriends

💚💚💚💚 #yummyyummy

💚💚💚💚 #yummyyummy

This is how you know you’re bestfriends! Friends who poop together stay together. #poopytime #sorrynotsorry #bestfriendtime #wepooproses #800milesaway #stillthesame #mandapanda #shellyshell #shesthebest #shesbetterthanyou #hashtagawesome #donthate #judgeus 👯👭💜💙💋💩🙈🙉🙊😹😂😝😍😘🐚🐼🌹 @shellgrif

This is how you know you’re bestfriends! Friends who poop together stay together. #poopytime #sorrynotsorry #bestfriendtime #wepooproses #800milesaway #stillthesame #mandapanda #shellyshell #shesthebest #shesbetterthanyou #hashtagawesome #donthate #judgeus 👯👭💜💙💋💩🙈🙉🙊😹😂😝😍😘🐚🐼🌹 @shellgrif